malam semalam, aku duduk bersila termangu, di atas sejadah, tak tahu apa yang tak kena, lipat sejadah dan baring, ahh aku semakin gelisah, suasana kelam yang gelap itu kian menerjah dan menyelubungi aku.
makin kaget, ingin sahaja aku lari bertempiaran, tapi tidak, aku tidak dapat bergerak, seakan dada dihentak, tangan digenggam dengan keeratan luar biasa. thud! ya Allah bunyi apakah itu, sedar2 badanku sudah bermandi peluh.
THUD! mulut terkumat kamit membaca doa, apa2 saja yang ada didalam dada. doa makan, doa tidur, doa mandi hadas besar? sebat! aku beristighfar, ya Allah lindungi lah hidupku ini, dari gangguan makhlukmu yang direjam. sumpah aku tak mau jumpa apa2 benda yang berselubung keputihan.
beritighfar, beristighfar, beristighfar.
dunia cerah tetiba, aku melompat keriangan, seraya menjerit, syukur! tapi perut kejang aduhh, setan!
"hoi, kau buat apa terpekik-telolong tuh!"
"sakit perut"
"dalam lima jam blackout tadi kau buat apa?"
"tahan sakit perut, tanak masuk bilik air, gelap sangat"
(sunyi seketika)
aduh perut berbunyi lagi, bilik air panggil, lampu dah terbuka, takut dah hilang, apalagi terjah jamban yuk.
hish, jauh terpesong dari entri sebenar yang ingin disampaikan
the day before, despite of having no clue of what to do, put my ass upon the chair, sit and think for some minutes, and think more. i found myself watching bleach. yea almost forgot haven't seen the latest one.
then it happens, "argh, aa, Argh. ARGH!!" god please don't make what i think become real. heard my mom screaming, while thinking that someone broke into our house and threatening mom, shoot my self downstairs and came before the door with my mom, believe or not, dancing her way into the house while screaming.
"ular bal, ular!" what the.., i then saw it wriggling on the floor. then observe the size of it. saw it's head, alahai kecik je (macam adik lelaki kamu punya..yang belum sunat itu), badan berkilat, bawahnya putih. shed my tears of laughter. "apa gelak2? aku baling ngan tong sampah ni, niaya kau!" mom shout.
ohh sebenarnya, sejujurnya aku lapar. tadi tak makan, tak mau, sombong. sekarang termenung, tengok ular.
lapar, lapar, lapar, terbayang bagaimana Bear Grylls yang membintangi Man vs Wild, realiti tv saluran discovery channel, makan ular mentah-mentah. ugh perut dah meragam. terbayang.
ya, ya. saiz sama dengan dalam klip video itu. terbayang, lapar, terbayang.
"pergi ambil buluh kat belakang, tu sumpahan dia, cepat!, nanti dia masuk bawah kerusi, cepatlaa!". be aware that i am not deaf, mom. dashed to last room behind. fetch the thing and ran back infront. and before i know what i was doing,
"WHAM!" the first blow strike, i missed, damn. u are in a shitload of trouble, little creature. it tried to sneak under the sofa. "thud, thud, WHAM!!" second blow strike an hit just slightly before it's head. then the third blow, debris of many sorts spread all over, then the next. ahh i lost count. mom said before i hit it, i should warn it by saying "kalau kau musuh aku, aku bunuh akan kau", didn't argue and i done just as asked.
ahh finally, blood drips from it's head. i guess it's clinging for dear life now that it's head is bashed. good thing it's a small one, i first wish that is was bigg. don't care if it's slightly bigger than this one or larger. the bigger the merrier. but huge, i would lock myself in my room, my mom? she can stay outside,she got all the time to scream until dusk.
dragged it outside, asked mum "kenapa kena cakap aku bunuh kau kat ular tu". "takut orang bawak ilmu". ish bolehkah aku percaya? aduh semacam karutan.
aduh terngiang pula lagu Time To Say Goodbye. nah, aku sajikan kamu resolusiku untuk tahun hadapan. *drumroll, tadaa. jumpa ular, senyum dan buatla apa yang patut (bunuh/makan) *garis jawapan yang sesuai
naik atas lepas tu, basuh kaki ambil wudu'. solat, takut terkena badi. dan untuk qada' solat zohor.
Tuesday
Wednesday
damn random
flicking around old family albums, strings of memory flashes in my head continously, thou, some appeared to be more appealing than the rest;
rest of my family and i are heading home from kelantan to johor, then we bumped into some goat or something, this was then, a loooooong time ago;
aku : eh, babi!
abang 1: tu kambing la ngok
abang 2: nenek kau la aja bende tu babi.
aku : tu babi la, babi kan ade tanduk (membulatkan mate, kening dirapatkan)
semua: (diam seketika, merenung tepat kearah ayah)
ayah: apehal korang ni? (menggaru kepala, seperti tidak mengerti)
and i always ask mum questions about, i dunno, anything, randomly. she would wore that righteous and confident face every time she gave an answer to my question;
aku: mak
mak: ye sayang?
aku: ni ikan ape? (sambil menuding jari kearah skrin tv)
mak: ikan JOS nama dia.
aku: (garu kepala, mengeluarkan buku latihan bergambar dari beg tadika) ibal tulis kat sini ea?
mak: ha yelahh.
aku: ni ade lima petak kosong; _ _ _ _ _ , hmm JOS tiga huruf, tapi ade lima petak ni, tulis jela J O S S S
the next day, teacher selak2 all our books. giddy and excited, showed mine to her first, the next thing i know is that my face have made a contact with the book, how come? i dunno, must have fallen from the sky.* yea, damn right, it's SHARK for shark's sake
rest of my family and i are heading home from kelantan to johor, then we bumped into some goat or something, this was then, a loooooong time ago;
aku : eh, babi!
abang 1: tu kambing la ngok
abang 2: nenek kau la aja bende tu babi.
aku : tu babi la, babi kan ade tanduk (membulatkan mate, kening dirapatkan)
semua: (diam seketika, merenung tepat kearah ayah)
ayah: apehal korang ni? (menggaru kepala, seperti tidak mengerti)
and i always ask mum questions about, i dunno, anything, randomly. she would wore that righteous and confident face every time she gave an answer to my question;
aku: mak
mak: ye sayang?
aku: ni ikan ape? (sambil menuding jari kearah skrin tv)
mak: ikan JOS nama dia.
aku: (garu kepala, mengeluarkan buku latihan bergambar dari beg tadika) ibal tulis kat sini ea?
mak: ha yelahh.
aku: ni ade lima petak kosong; _ _ _ _ _ , hmm JOS tiga huruf, tapi ade lima petak ni, tulis jela J O S S S
the next day, teacher selak2 all our books. giddy and excited, showed mine to her first, the next thing i know is that my face have made a contact with the book, how come? i dunno, must have fallen from the sky.* yea, damn right, it's SHARK for shark's sake
Thursday
16, 17, and 18 (december)
the numbers above are not plainly written and stood there for nothing. the numbers above have its own facts in my life. having its own history since the day i was born, trotting until i have grown tall to these days. this year these numbers have it made its own history again but totally different compared to the passing years, and it is awesomely awesome yet holds story of gloomy and unbelievably head spinning days that i have no other option but to go through it. so here goes;
16: the day in december that i was born. that was then in 1991. and now for the 17th time it is my birthday. its time for gifts and wishes from families and friends. couple of messages came via my myspace and my phone, wishing me for my birthday just before midnight, and more friends wishing until its dusk. and it doesn't stop there. hazwan called me and out of the blues, he sang 'happy birthday' to me .oh man thank you soo much. i don't wish for anything you see, because the day before and after is just the same, its not like i've grown goatee or having wrinkles on my face to be called 'old'. and i didn't get much stuff, just driving class and money to buy some shirt. all i know is that good friends and a caring 'wife' and a loving family is all i need for my birthday.
16:is also the year im taking spm! motherfisher im totally glad that this 'demon' is over. but this demon itself gives me life for the future, so instead of killing it i worked hard for it and only god , and the examiners too would know the results to come.
17: the year that have been counted since i'm in the tiny little incubator until now, oh how time dash so fast i can't even compare whether i'm a children that jump around when they're happy having candies or stuff bought for them along side of their parents or a man that have grown up that he is on his own now in whatever he does. i am gonna get my car license a.s.a.p. so i wouldn't sitting my ass on that dummy bus anymore. i'll be off to college or matrikulasi or any institution that have the course of my choice. i guess ill be saying 'bye2 mom n dad n chicken n fish, ill be seeing u guys later after 6 month or so' sooner or later. then ill know how much i miss my family and home. geeez.
18:the age where im allowed to watch pg movies, and stuff. haha.
18:anyway on 18th of dec im out with kak d, banci, and intan, to cs. just to loiter around and hanging out. i met kak d first in mph then went for char kue, sitting and talking while waiting for banci and his sister. without noticing we talk about anything from school stuff to college stuff about almost an hour. the best part is when kak d told me about the telematch held at her college, the funny hakka dance, and a friend of hers who had ilmu mantiq, pretty scary stuff u know. then banci along with intan arrived and assuming that we all hungry, went to secret recipe. ohh the meal, just great, kak d is just having cake because her teeth's hurt, poor her. oh i almost forgot intan took a piece of the cake stuffed it into my mouth. its my birthday alright. haha. and we start to check out things from a shop to another. loiter around it is, but i got myself a vest! ohh i soo look like dan humphrey. haha. kak d bought pair of footwear, its quiet nice actually, intan and banci just drool. haha. later after that everyone head to their home, myfeet like its been already brittle, like it will brake anytime. hahah. oh i almost forgot that we met yo with her family and hazwan, with his girls, i mean lotsa lotsa girl. wooot. well anyways and anyhow i had fun that day.
thanks to those who are keeping me buzy replying ur messages of wishes and all. thank you guys soo much
16: the day in december that i was born. that was then in 1991. and now for the 17th time it is my birthday. its time for gifts and wishes from families and friends. couple of messages came via my myspace and my phone, wishing me for my birthday just before midnight, and more friends wishing until its dusk. and it doesn't stop there. hazwan called me and out of the blues, he sang 'happy birthday' to me .oh man thank you soo much. i don't wish for anything you see, because the day before and after is just the same, its not like i've grown goatee or having wrinkles on my face to be called 'old'. and i didn't get much stuff, just driving class and money to buy some shirt. all i know is that good friends and a caring 'wife' and a loving family is all i need for my birthday.
16:is also the year im taking spm! motherfisher im totally glad that this 'demon' is over. but this demon itself gives me life for the future, so instead of killing it i worked hard for it and only god , and the examiners too would know the results to come.
17: the year that have been counted since i'm in the tiny little incubator until now, oh how time dash so fast i can't even compare whether i'm a children that jump around when they're happy having candies or stuff bought for them along side of their parents or a man that have grown up that he is on his own now in whatever he does. i am gonna get my car license a.s.a.p. so i wouldn't sitting my ass on that dummy bus anymore. i'll be off to college or matrikulasi or any institution that have the course of my choice. i guess ill be saying 'bye2 mom n dad n chicken n fish, ill be seeing u guys later after 6 month or so' sooner or later. then ill know how much i miss my family and home. geeez.
18:the age where im allowed to watch pg movies, and stuff. haha.18:anyway on 18th of dec im out with kak d, banci, and intan, to cs. just to loiter around and hanging out. i met kak d first in mph then went for char kue, sitting and talking while waiting for banci and his sister. without noticing we talk about anything from school stuff to college stuff about almost an hour. the best part is when kak d told me about the telematch held at her college, the funny hakka dance, and a friend of hers who had ilmu mantiq, pretty scary stuff u know. then banci along with intan arrived and assuming that we all hungry, went to secret recipe. ohh the meal, just great, kak d is just having cake because her teeth's hurt, poor her. oh i almost forgot intan took a piece of the cake stuffed it into my mouth. its my birthday alright. haha. and we start to check out things from a shop to another. loiter around it is, but i got myself a vest! ohh i soo look like dan humphrey. haha. kak d bought pair of footwear, its quiet nice actually, intan and banci just drool. haha. later after that everyone head to their home, myfeet like its been already brittle, like it will brake anytime. hahah. oh i almost forgot that we met yo with her family and hazwan, with his girls, i mean lotsa lotsa girl. wooot. well anyways and anyhow i had fun that day.
thanks to those who are keeping me buzy replying ur messages of wishes and all. thank you guys soo much
Do you drink too much?
or are you on to something that is even more drastic? well i hope not. but if you do, you probably end up not as much as these guys
10. The gardener doesn’t even wake you
9. You’re walking on train tracks with cones on your head
8. You’re using your hand as a pillow
7. You passed out standing up
6. Foot on the bench, body on the floor
5. No shirt, Mumm’s, champagne flute and a suitcase?
4. Only Batman himself can handle 14 zombies
3. “Slow Hand” can’t handle the booze
2. No sink, no toilet, urinal it is
Nuff Said
10. The gardener doesn’t even wake you
9. You’re walking on train tracks with cones on your head
8. You’re using your hand as a pillow
7. You passed out standing up
6. Foot on the bench, body on the floor
5. No shirt, Mumm’s, champagne flute and a suitcase?
4. Only Batman himself can handle 14 zombies
3. “Slow Hand” can’t handle the booze
2. No sink, no toilet, urinal it is
Nuff Said
Monday
relief, going out and nothing else
as the headline stated, i am totally glad that the bitch called SPM is finally overr. i know its been ages since it's over, but now i can write peacefully with nothing else going on and with things that im ought to do. now i am clueless and left blank compared to those days where revision is done for countless hours. now i am doing nothing. work? car license? i don't think so. i am swarmed with illness called 'lazy' for now. going out? ohh absolutely YES. went to catch movies with friends, and the mega sale just tempt me to spend every single pennies of mine, but im sure to get myself some new tops and pants. wouldn't you do the same? haha
anyways, im out last weekend with my brothers to watch LOS DAN FAUN just before midnight, another film by Afdlin Shauki, and it's my new favourite malay movie! other than Anak Halal. then the next day me and aqila went to CS, again to get ourseleves some clothes and to catch TWILIGHT. i am sure many of you guys have read the book. some say its a blast (for those who've read it) but i found that the movie is not as exciting as i expected, maybe i should take a glance at the books, then ill be agreeing and not arguing against them, yeah sooner or later or never. for information on both movies, click here and here .
wacky wacky wacky wacky wacky
just look at how they stare at youu
i guess you guys must be wondering about things that happen during my four month absence in the blog. there's just too much tale to tell. my hand doesn't have that much energy to write such long post (SPM thingy especially). but my memories and mouth does. so lets hear it from my mouth! hehe. oh before this post ends, i just want to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA! later guys
anyways, im out last weekend with my brothers to watch LOS DAN FAUN just before midnight, another film by Afdlin Shauki, and it's my new favourite malay movie! other than Anak Halal. then the next day me and aqila went to CS, again to get ourseleves some clothes and to catch TWILIGHT. i am sure many of you guys have read the book. some say its a blast (for those who've read it) but i found that the movie is not as exciting as i expected, maybe i should take a glance at the books, then ill be agreeing and not arguing against them, yeah sooner or later or never. for information on both movies, click here and here .
wacky wacky wacky wacky wacky
just look at how they stare at youu
i guess you guys must be wondering about things that happen during my four month absence in the blog. there's just too much tale to tell. my hand doesn't have that much energy to write such long post (SPM thingy especially). but my memories and mouth does. so lets hear it from my mouth! hehe. oh before this post ends, i just want to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA! later guys
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